Thursday, February 26, 2009


I wanna scream out loud..

How could I do such a thing??


Stupid me..

I guess whining does not help at all..

All I can do is,

Get motivated!!!

Do not slack!!!

More effort...



it's so terrifying.. haha
I think I'm going to get half of the total marks..

That bloody quiz would surely affect quite gravely!! **sobsob

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

This time..

This time..


I will...

I will do it!!!!

I must do it!!!

Saturday, February 21, 2009


This time,

It's in the bathroom, not the room..
It was pretty disgusted..
Black water flowing from the ceiling down the ground..

That's all about the physical flood..
It's about the psychological flood.. wakaka..
ICPU is really "flooded" with assignments and tests..
I just hope...
time flows slower..
CPT novel.. (another 250 pages to go)


Friday, February 20, 2009


I'm so sleepy..
there's so much to do..

I now long for the coming holidays or weekends..

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Am I?

Am I here?
Do you know?

Of course I am.. In front of the computer browsing facebook again...
so unmotivated..


I'm just being kinda bored these days..
Browsing through the net everyday, going to the usual websites..
It seems that I am hardly motivated these days, I guess it's the laziness syndrome again..
Gosh.. I just want to get rid of it..

Friday, February 13, 2009

Wandering about, wondering..

wakaka.. stupid title eh?
wandering, wondering?
The long silence of my blog..
The reason?!
I wanna let everyone to know about my convocation..
hoho.. I'm just looking forward to it very much..

My next wonder in the list:
CPT novel..
Pride & Prejutice..


Sometimes I wonder..
Is blue really"blue"?
Is pink really "pink"?
Mirror indeed shows our reflections,
yet will it show us the truth?
I wonder...

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Piano Diploma convocation

I'm hearing news from Miss Lee!! Yeah, I'm graduating as in the school of music!!!
I was so excited when I heard about it..
Duh!! No doubt about it..
It's just natural for people to be over excited at times!!!
Plus it's such a rare opportunity, I must not miss it.. OR should I say, I will not ever trying to miss it..
It's been years since I pass Grade 8..
It's too bad I don't have the time to learn violin or guitar or whatever instruments.. :(

something I enjoy a lot..
something I had once cried over..

something that is very meaningful..
something that brings the best out of one's life..

Even though I don't think someone would read my blog, I'll still going to post this..
I'm really excited over this issue, and I can't wait for April to come..
RM300++ for the robes?? Whatever.. I'll pay the price so that I can enjoy that proudest moment of my life..
It's my greatest personal achievement till now...

Next stop I guess, it'll be performing life on stage!!
Gosh.. I miss that kind of nervous feelings and satisfaction when it's the first time performing..
People are admiring your playing, acknowledging your status in the musical performance..
OWH!! I miss that moment..
haha.. Anyone needs any companion in performing, I'll help you with the piano, though I'm still not that good..
Never mind that..
I just want to perform in front of people and enjoy myself, instead of saying that "Yeah, I could play the piano too.."
"Owh, I wished that I could play so freely like her.."

However, I'm not that interested in composing songs.. Composing needs lots of techniques, and I don't know what to write about.. Perhaps I should try to compose my own song..
& don't ask me about any famous pianist.. I like to play piano, and I like to perform..
But it doesn't mean that I know everything about music..
I just enjoy it in my own way, in my own little world.. I don't really care how people perform, or how good they are, even though they're really good in reality..
Being ignorant about music?? Or not enough passion in music?? I don't care about it..
I just love performing..
Hmm.. Maybe I should go for the other higher level of diploma, then I'll run to England?? haha..
A wild fantasy, which only exists in my dreams..

Come to think of it.. I'm writing as if I'm really fond of music..
Missing the performing chance?? Maybe.. erm.. YEAH!!!
But I'm sure not a pro on piano knowledge.. Mind that in your mind..

The end??

ARGH!!! My physic..
Even for some simple conceptual questions, I can't answer..
Yet, when people say," Yeah.. There's next time...Then just do better"
Yeah.. It's true for some cases..
It's not true for me!!!
First test, and I'm feeling that I'm so weak in that..
Gosh.. I'm off to a rocky and very bad start.. How would I cope with the increasing difficulty of questions later on??

"Look the good side of life"
It's not always true...
**being down now..

Sunday, February 1, 2009


gosh, why do I end up in here again.. it's just my daily routine i guess.. haha..
My mind is so blank now, I just don't know how to do..
that helpless feeling again..
hmm.. I've been noticing, the songs in my cellphone seem to be emo.. perhaps I should listen to some joyful songs.. **just another crap.. haha..

**back to work now..