Coming to An End

2009 is ending.. & a new chapter will be flipping through..
new year resolution?? nahhh.. I'll stick with my old ones..

2 days to countdown.. xD

I'm done with exams!!
**had a bad feeling for the result though.. ****
Anyway, it can't be undone..
Woohooo... might as well as enjoy the holidays to the max!

Logging in and out of facebook,
despite telling myself not to be tempted by it...

zzzz.. time is ticking..

My WIsh

"I hope the days come easy & the moments pass slow
And each road leads you to where you want to go...

.... And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walking till you find the window"

Quoted from "My wish" by Rascal Flatts

Nice lyrics..

:)

Gear up

Gear up!!
That's what I need right now, as failure is not an option..

Blurred..

Blind promises, no more..... =)
I'm sure I can make it!!

Blur

Whales = waves
Satellite = central atom..

LOL...
I really need to get a good night's sleep, keep dozing off in class lately... xD

It's gonna be a long weekend....
**sigh

Ooppss..

Those words burst the bubble of hope I had for my Bio midterm..
"You stand a chance..... "

Anyway, it's over, no use crying over spilt milk..
It hit me real hard in the face, but I won't be defeated by it anymore..

Random... cont'd

Philosophical @@

It could paint your space with sheer darkness..
It could change your way of viewing things..
It might change your course of path in life..

Actions~~

Finally, some real chinese food.. =P
it pays to eat something nice i guess..

Random

I found this pretty randomly though.. Pravsworld images are pretty nice & meaningful.. =)


& I'm still here instead of digging myself in chemistry & physic questions.. hmmm...
okie, CIAO!!

Perhaps Not

that's the usual saying of my calculus lecturer..
"Hmm.. Perhaps not.. Let's try again..."
lol

That's totally right..
Try again..
Things won't change unless you make an effort to do it...
Sometimes, things won't turn out as expected, or it doesn't seem as how others see..
That's why,
there's tomorrow, so that we can improve ourselves..

**back to homework...
too much slacking these days.. xP

Totally nocturnal

Cozy bed..
Cool weather..
Warm comforter..

Ahh.. What a perfect setting..
**Feeling so lazy to wake up

I wished weekends were longer.. xD

=)

Amidst the heavy workload,
we often forget,
that a simple smile & a clear mind would do,
as it makes your day better.. =)
I know I do.. hehe
x)

p/s: This post is not meant to be emo..

something else..

Be bold in learning & say aloud your ideas so that you could be HEARD..
That's the advice I got from people..

It's soooooo true.. xD

***Why am I here again?? Review, study!!!
I just couldn't get that passkey into my head & get it going..
Holiday is still the theme in my head.. lol

Commencer (french)

It's officially ON today..
1st day of class, woohooo~~
The lecture was, uhm, pretty lengthy.. hmm.. We'll see how it goes later on.. =)

HERE!!!

I'm in Toronto!!!

I'm HEREEEE!!

DUBAI!!!!
lol..
pretty bored now..

5.4.3.2.....

Counting down..
1 day..
YEAH~~~



Okie, another random stuff..
"People just choose to listen what they want to listen.. "
It's so true..

Sleeeep

My plan of sleeping early seemed to fail lately.. It even got worse & worse..
Dark circles are returning again.. lol

Muz treasure more sleep hours, before things start to get busy soon.. =P

**It's pretty late now

Totally random

What makes people appreciate their life? Their point of view..

Some people could paint any situation with words so beautifully, yet some only see the darker side of it..

Some blogs are so sweet to be read, yet some are filled with whinings & complains (just like mine**) xD

haha.. I'm not referring to anyone.. This is totally random stuff, it flashes through my mind just that instant..

CoffeX

Nothing beats a cup of coffee, a good seating & a good book..
Coffee & food saved me from boredom.. ;P



The only place to let time pass by is the coffee shop..
Nice mocha, but a bit pricey..



The book wasn't exactly the perfect book you'll indulge yourself in a world of fantasy & imagination within the few pages you read..

I like the main idea, pretty catchy & interesting.. Plot is pretty ok..
Overall, it's a good book, but not one of my favourite books..

Anyway, I was pretty satisfied that day.. hehe..

Answer.Question

I ain't trying to make a statement about me..
I'm just stating the facts & the answer to your question.. =)
I guess,
sometimes people just think otherwise..

12am

I made it before 12am..
hehe..

Approaching

The day is coming,
whether we want it or not..

For me,
it's still another day of sleeping & eating,
enjoying the care-free life..
I'm pretty much still in "sleepy" mode,
not really hyped-up yet..

Anyway, nothing beats a good book or movie to let your imagination run wild,
pretty vivid till you'll never tell that time really flies..
Time seem to pass by slower these days..

Sleepy

A: You know, Eminem the rapper?
B: Huh?? Amy Name??
**got singer named like that?**
A: Yeah!!! Very famous in USA..
B: Sorry??
A: E-MI-NEM lo!!
B: Eminem, that I know!! **realised**

Geez..
Eminem to Amy Name??
**bad hearing!!! Maybe I was half sleepy..

Zzz ??

I just couldn't sleep well these few days..
Plus, those really weird & out of logic dreams..
Hmmm..
Maybe my biological clock is adjusted to 1++ to 2am sleep..
Geez, it's so unhealthy!

Realize

It's been a long long holiday, not that I don't treasure it.. xP
Things have been the same all along, but somehow some have changed..
Anyway, I realised that I'm pretty lucky, not that I don't know before..
The sense of gratitude is being magnified in a larger scale..
For I could see that in my eyes now..
haha..

I could be a bit demanding, just to keep up-to-date to what I want..
But, in the end
I still have to consider what I want thoroughly,
even though I really really WANT it..

Torn between needs & wants..

Actions vs Words

Actions are so much harder compared to words..
Whining is useless,
yet we continue doing it..

That's why we need faith..
So that we can finally realise our own resolutions..

Heart vs. Mind

When you want to acheive something,
if your heart says no,
you will never succeed.


Faith...

人們...

總習慣用自己的角度去看事情,

直到...

瞭解了真相...

Manga pics..

yakitate Japan!!


air gear


hayate, the combat butler


vampire knight


ouran high school host club


shakugan no shana


lol..
lazy to write..
so, I'm posting pictures!! hehe..

Clueless

hmm..
what to write about...






I'm clueless!!!
hehe..

I just don't want think or fret over the mantoux test.. gees..
opps..
I just mention it..
lol..
=.=" I know that..

At least, i'm plucking endlessly when I'm bored..

hmph..

Can life be any worse without it??





YES!!!!
stupid connection..
means..
reconnecting every 10mins or so..
&
the thrill of manga is lost.. =(

I'm A Living What??

-.-
=.=
@.@
0.0
^.^

argh..
I'm a living potato for the time being..
or a living owl, thanks to my waking-sleeping habits..
or a living pig, waiting the time to while away..




anyway, to conclude everything..

I'm damn SIEnZ...
I'm a living person.. duh!! xD

laptop is lagging much much worse now..
**reformatting my laptop 2moro..
gosh.. need to download those additional programmes again.. sigh

24

24 hours a day...

10 hours sleeping..

14 hours to do random things..

sitting, standing, lying, resting, walking..

staring blankly at the screen..

browsing through different websites..

facebook is no longer fun, as i thought..

no more spamming.. hehe..

Zzz

Zzzzzz...

Zzzzzz........

Zzzzzz............

pretty bored now..
Hmmm..
back to manga.. =P

Flight Back Home

the same procedure i've gone thru' over and over..
but,
it's different this time..

Eventually, my luggage was 39.1 kg.. The limit was 20kg.
I was thinking, "Walao.. I need to pay so much ar??? 1kg RM10.. Thank God I got excess $$ in my wallet."

Gosh.. & I'm not finished with my stuffs yet..
Some of it I left it at my uncle's house..

=( I wonder..
1 yr = 40kg
4 yrs = wow.. that's A LOT!!!

Manga quotes..

Turning weakness to strength, despair to hope..
Carve out the proof that you have lived..

I found this in the Tsubasa Chronicles series..
It's pretty meaningful, ain't it??
We live for a purpose,
and we live to achieve that purpose..

Coming to an end..

Time does indeed flies..
A year ago, it was the moment we were all waiting for the results whether we got it or not..
And now....
We are officially the graduates!! Woohoo.. yeah!!!

Friendship..
something that cannot be gained easily..
It's so fragile, that one tiny error will paint a dark spot forever in the heart..
Along this journey, I've met lots of people..
Some are considered as real friends, while some are just strangers that we meet and leave..
I know that I've irritated some people,
making you guys bei siok..
Yet, sometimes simply tell the truth would help a lot, especially the situation.. xD
Yeah... It'll of course make one feel low and hurt at that instant,
but once you know it, & you try to make a change,
it'll be a whole lot better for everyone..
Anyway, I just want to say,
that I'm happy to have met you guys..
Thanks for your help and support all along..
I'll always remember you guys..
Cheers***

** Wow, this post seems so philosophical.. haha XP

Amazing music..

Check out this video clip..
It's really touching..
The sound is almost flawless.. xD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-EQ6eHeBrhM

Pavilion.. The Luxury Icon..

Things that I've Learnt

ICPU was really fun, not to mention those stressful days when we were rushing for the assignments and dreadful projects to be done ASAP..
Yet, it also gave me some new personal meaning for my own self..
~ Things just don't turn out the way they are supposed to.. We just need to try our best in everything
~ Some people are just better than you in some other ways..
~ Life will always be as hectic as ever.. But some things just need to be slowed down.. We just gotta relax and have fun.. We're not some boring robots, right??
~ Things are always available for you.. You just need to ask for your own self..
~ Friends are always there for you, cuz they're really great people that you know in your entire life
~ Talking crap is useful at times.. xD
~ Ignorance is bliss at times, but not all the time..
~ Absolute balance is so important..



Zzzzz..
I'm getting sleepy... I'm crapping again..
Brain's gonna switch to silent mode for now.. =P
The list will be added later, i guess.. So tired... XD

Outings After Exam

The Genting trip is...
FUN!!!
GREAT!!
EXCITING!!


It's like another moment,
just passed seconds ago..

The Ferris wheel & cold temperature,
make me think of the famous Hello Kitty ferris wheel in Taiwan again.. lol..


Anyway,
the trip was really fun,
especially the game we played around midnight or so..
It's damn funny and exciting..

Just to recall my craze or my "bad" habit,
I just love to go around and look,
even though it's just for display purposes..
It never hurts for taking another look at stuffs..
Stuffs that you'll never afford to buy or wear or use..

Fears...

Fear of being alone..
Fear of being alienated..
Fear of losing someone..
Fear of heights..
Fear of bugs..
Fear of rumours..
Fear of dark..
Fear of being accused..
Fear of disappointment..
Fear of failures..
Fear of gross food..
Fear of not getting in touch..
Fear of ignorance..
Fear of water..
Fear of probabilities..
Fear of being lost..


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Just some of the fears I've thought of when I was in the bus..
GENERAL fears though..

GOSH... I'm too bored..
haha..

Fun..

Yeah..
It was fun..
It'll be better for tomorrow..

Panting..

Panting is useless..
cuz it's over ady..
What I can say is,
why did I forget about it at the last minute, yet it's so simple...


Gosh...
**praying hard that miracles will happen..

100 Truths..

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Watermelon juice
2. Last phone call: Aunt
3. Last text message: Su Ching
4. Last song you listened to:Synchronicity
5. Last time you cried: Last year

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: No
7. Been cheated on: No
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No
9. Lost someone special: No
10. Been depressed: Yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: No

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. White
13. Blue
14. Grey

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: No
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes
18. Met someone who changed you: Some sort
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 70%

23. How many kids do you want?: Depends
24. Do you have any pets: Yes
25. Do you want to change your name: No
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Self celebration in the unit
27. What time did you wake up today: 6.23am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Studying
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Holiday
30. Last time you saw your Mother: Months ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: to be more spontaneous, sociable and appealing to people
32. What are you listening to right now : Lost Wings
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Dreadful exams
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook, blog
36. Whats your real name: Grace Tay
37. Nicknames: Gracie
38. Relationship Status: Single
39. Zodiac sign: Scorpio
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Primary School?: Keat Hwa (H)
42. Secondary School?: Keat Hwa
43. High school/college?: Taylor's University College
44. Hair colour: Black
45. Long or short: long
46. Height: 157cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: No
48: What do you like about yourself?: The talent to play piano
49. Piercings: No
50. Tattoos: No
51. Righty or lefty: Lefty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: None
53. First piercing: None
54. First best friend: HP
55. First sport you joined: Badminton
56. First vacation: Taiwan
58. First pair of trainers: No

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: Nothing
60. Drinking: Nothing
61. I'm about to: post this tag
62. Listening to: If You Are My Love
63. Waiting on: time to pass

YOUR FUTURE
64. Want kids?: Yes
65. Get Married?: Yes
66. Career?: Yes

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Both
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: None
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Both

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: No
77. Drank hard liquor: No
78. Lost glasses/contacts: No
79. Sex on first date: No
80. Broken someone's heart: No
82. Been arrested: No
83. Turned someone down: Yes
84. Cried when someone died: No
85. Fallen for a friend?: No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Not really
87. Miracles: Yes, when I'm desperate
88. Love at first sight: No
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: Yes
91. Kiss on the first date: Yes
92. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: No, only hum
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: When I was born
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Some crazy fun outing
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yes


^^ I'm just too bored..

Over No More

It's over..
It's done..
Nothing can be done....

It's no use weeping or thinking over it..
cuz,
there's no other way to repeat it again...

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That's why we should just forget it and move on...
Calculus on Mon, we all must do better...

FINALE...

It's coming to an end...
Best of luck to everyone..

Broken.....

Ruins..

There's nothing left...
NO more..
This world is all darkness..
Darkness is within human heart after all..
What I can say is,
there'll always be ruins behind all success...
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gosh..

presenting..
our rube goldberg remains..
wakakakaka..
it's just another boring & random post.. =)

MIracle..

Miracles..
Success rate of one in a million..
thank God for it works!!!!

WOOHOO..
BIG relief..
A sense of pride & glory in ourselves at that moment..

=(
The sad thing is,
we never took a full video of the success of our machine..
not even the last final view of it after we finished it, except for the destroyed remains..

Anyway,
it was MIRACLE!!!

Deep Thoughts.. CPT...

Withdrawn

I need to think back..
Am I really here?
or just another shadow to people?

Happy Mother's Day

Woohoo..
It's Mother's Day!!


Happy Mother's Day to you, mum..
you've been always busy for work and family..
thanks for taking care of the family so well,
and prevent us from having some emotional breakdown..
thanks for bringing us up to be such good characters..
thanks for bearing with us at most times..
thanks for granting all our needs whenever you can afford to..
finally,
THANKS for everything!!!
I'm so sorry if I've hurt you,
during the times when I'm naughty..



Love,
Grace (on behalf of Janice & Jerry)

Thinking..

Rin....

Gambateh..

He's going to Harvard..


Whoa!!! (Damn smart la)


She's going to U of California..


Wah!!!!



I must add more oil!!!


ps. another random boring post.. =P

Tag-ged by LILIAN

Upload your fave picture and answer the questions below.


TAIWAN 4eva!!


Why do you chose this photo?

It was my 1st time travelling overseas alone (uhm, I only get to know people when I reached there). Having fun for 3 weeks, and trying the delicacies there, the experience is amazing indeed. I'll never 4get that experience, even though we don't keep close contact anymore. =P

When is the last time u ate Pizza?

Today!! hehe =P I'm so bored with the everyday food that I tried the pizza in AC.. The crust was REALLY thin, but it still tastes ok..

The last song you've listened to?

With You by Chris Brown

What are you doing besides answering this tag?
Facebook-ing.. Browsing.. (feeling sorry for missing the bus.. I wanna go back!! haha)

Besides your own name, how do you like ppl to call u?

Xin Yi, Gracy..

Tag 6 people. The following questions are related to them.
1. Keat Yee
2. Kai Han
3. Anna
4. Julia
5. Wei Wei
6. Lilian

Who is No. 1?
A nice friend I met in NS.. Damn smart and interesting personality!! Congrats to her as she'll be flying off this year!! Hooray!!

No. 3 has a relationship with?
Me.. Her.. We're lesbians!!!
NAY!!! don't get it wrong!!
We've juz housemates.. haha

Say something about No. 5
Smart, outgoing, sociable, funny person.. A good friend that will help you during difficult times..
A good leader too!!

How about No. 4?
She's the sweet girl-next-door that everyone knows about.. Sometimes she laughs really long, believe me, but that's what makes her special.. =P

Who is No. 2?
She lives as the same floor as me.. really good in physics, n a great singer too!!

Say something to No. 6!
Let's strive for our future!!! Canada, here we come!!
Gambateh together!!

----END-----

EMo

Call me emo,
Call me sad,
Call me unhappy..


It doesn't matter,
coz it's not what I feel.

What am I feeling right now???















TIRED..
EXHAUSTED..
BORED..

Truth vs Illusion

TRUTH



LIE




It's painful,
to only know the TRUTH after various LIES...

So, which do I prefer?
TRUTH..

The unconscious mind always reveals the truth..

Food... in Times Square..

I Know..

I know that..
I know it..
I really want to help..
But,
why can't I seem to contribute anything??

whatever it is, I will keep trying..

Cumin' up..

woohoo..
friday is coming!!!
finally,
I get to have some sleep!!!
plus..
I'm going to Legend Hotel..
haha..

Translation..

The present belongs to who??

There was some rude guy harrasing a monk for a few days.
Then, the monk asked the guy, "If someone gives you present, and you refuse to take it, who will own that present in the end?"
The sude guy answered, "It belongs to the one who gave the present."
The monk then said, "Then, if I do not accept your harrassment, then are you harrassing yourself?"
The guy then walks away.

Moral:
As long as you think positively, no one will ever affect your mind.
If you were to take into account every other people's comments, you'll never have full control over your life.


Doing what we should do
A boy went home crying to his mom saying that, "My teacher only let me play a small role, while my friend plays the major character."
The mother then put her watch on her son's hand and ask, "What do you see?"
He replied, "A gold watch and the needle hand."
The mom then remove the cover of the watch and ask him the same question.
This time, he answered, "Dial and dial screws."
She then said, "If one of these things is absent in the watch, the watch would not work at all."

Moral:
Regardless of the role we play in life, we should do our best in playing our roles.
No matter how insignificant the role is, it will still have its own value and purpose.
Never underestimate small things or events.

meaningful..

禮物歸誰
一個佛陀在旅途中，碰到一個不喜歡他的人。連續好幾天，好長一段路，那個人都用盡各種方法來侮辱他。最後，佛陀轉身問那個人：「若有人送你一份禮物，但你拒絕接受，那麼這份禮物最後會屬於誰呢？」那個人回答：「屬於原本送禮的那個人。」佛陀笑著說：「沒錯。若我不接受你的謾罵，那你就是在罵自己囉？」那個人摸摸鼻子走了。

【智慧沙】
只要心靈健康，別人怎麼樣都不會影響我們。相反，如果我們一味地在乎別人的說法或做法，就會失去自主權，受人支配。

做好份內該做的事
一個小男孩哭著回家了。因為在學校的活動裡，老師派他扮演一個小角色，而他的同學卻扮演主要角色。母親聽後，冷靜地把自己的錶放在男孩的手心裡，問男孩：「你看到什麼？」男孩回答說：「金錶殼和指標。」母親把錶背打開後，又問男孩同樣的問題，他看到許多小齒輪和螺絲。母親對男孩說：「這個錶假使缺少這些零件中的任何一件，便不能走了。就連那些你幾乎看不到的零件也是一樣重要。」

【智慧沙】
無論我們在工作中充當什麼樣的角色，只要是份內應該做的事，就應當盡力把它做到最好。再小的事、再不起眼的小角色，也有它存在的價值和意義。

...

I've decided to change my blog title..
hmm...
seems like all my posts contradict to my previous title, "Live Life to the Fullest"..

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Confessions..
simple yet deep..
a word that describes everything..

Accepted.. Rejected..

Argh..
University application..

**praying hard for all the best..

Chill

Chill.. reLax..
try ya best..
everything will be alright..

Roller Coaster

Life is a roller coaster..
when u're up at the peak,
there's bound to be a great fall..
yet..
the injuries suffered,
will only make one stronger..
or would it be?

Look on the bright side of matter,
and try da best,
& one would not regret over the past..

After all,
failure is the mother of success..

pessimistism just complements with optimistism..
if one would not explore the dark side of it,
how would one realise how important to look on the bright side?

生日含义

11月12日〔木星?悬吊者〕 代表人物：孙中山

> > 个性坚忍，谦恭有礼，具有牺牲奉献的精神；> >

> > 智慧很高，好学不倦，做任何事都会全神

> > 贯注，全力以赴。

> > 优点是具有坚强的意志及崇高的理想；仁慈、敏感，心地善良。> >

> > 缺点是过於慷慨，常常为了别人牺牲自已的利益。

我的生日含义果然是准（大多数），哈哈！！
从以前到现在，我都是那样，但我可不是那么的友善或慷慨。。
唉，牺牲也是一种快乐嘛。。
或许， 那也是一种能让社会接受我的办法。。
牺牲不一定是为了别人，它也可以给予个人的满足感。。
也许我有时无法说“不”，但我还是觉得开心，
因为我能与别人分享快乐。。

切记：有时候不能抵抗别人的邀请也是一种缺点哦！！


唉，可见我有多无聊啊。。
必须加油咯!!

so many..

lotsa catching up to do..
gosh..
i shouldn't have leave it so long..
now, i finally know..

Survived.. or not?

Yea.. I passed the IELTS exam..
It's considered ok i guess..
haha.. never ask too much of anything..
at least I passed..

Next..
my physic??!!!!
& others...

Zzz..

no more breaks..
no more peaceful time for sleep..
it's been torturing enough during weekdays,
always feeling sleepy early in the morning..

gosh..
there's been more burden on my eyes..
more and more..
eyebags..
i've been trying to get rid of my 'panda' eyes..
now,
i got another serious eyebag problem..
thanks to my staying up late habit..
sleeping at 2am during the holidays..
it's so unhealthy..

i guess i gotta make myself sleep at 12am now...
*sigh..

24 hours

The clock is ticking..

There's still tonnes of work left..

No more lagging..

Life is always fair..

It's how we utilise our time..

现在。未来

休息
是为了面对更遥远的路途
偶尔的跌伤
是为了让我们更有毅力
面对其他挑战

No way

How am I gonna survive like this?
Your consolation is useless, coz I know that I'm weak..




Why is everything not smooth sailing these days?
Is it not enough?
Will the outcome change?
I....


I need miracle asap!!

Hope

It's definitely hope..
Have faith..

Random..

Sometimes I wonder..
Is it too late, when we say it's too late?
when will be the time, where it's too late?
how do we know?




Instincts...

?!!!!!

It's gonna be harsh these few days..
tests..
2 days in a row..
there's so much...
too much...

Tonyroma

Parents teacher's day..
A moment where the true nature and impression of a teacher towards the students are revealed..
It's supposed to be exciting, and also the time for self-reflection..

Well...
It seems that I have not change so much..
But..
I'll try to change for the better..

Anyway, the main part is that I get to go to some fancy steak house!!!
Hoho..
Imagine you're eating hte same boring dish every day, and you're now treated with something more decent...

TONYROMA..
The food there is really delicious!!
yum yum... haha..

IELTS...

Owh....
Tomorrow...


The moment of life and death (literally)



IELTS..

Band 6.5\


The future, the shadow, the light, the downfall..



IT's the moment now!!!!



Gambateh!!!! Best of luck..

Blogging..

I wanna scream out loud..

How could I do such a thing??

OWH..

Stupid me..

I guess whining does not help at all..

All I can do is,

Get motivated!!!

Do not slack!!!

More effort...

Damn..

Calculus..

CAlculus..
it's so terrifying.. haha
Damn..
I think I'm going to get half of the total marks..

Gosh!!!!!
That bloody quiz would surely affect quite gravely!! **sobsob

This time..

This time..






I..



I will...




I will do it!!!!




I must do it!!!

FLOOD...

FLOOD!!!!
Argh..
Again?!
This time,



It's in the bathroom, not the room..
It was pretty disgusted..
Black water flowing from the ceiling down the ground..
Yucks..

That's all about the physical flood..
Now,
It's about the psychological flood.. wakaka..
ICPU is really "flooded" with assignments and tests..
GOSH..
I just hope...
that..
time flows slower..
IELTS..
OSSLT..
CPT novel.. (another 250 pages to go)

"FLOOD"!!!!!

Zzzz...

**yawns
I'm so sleepy..
Yet,
there's so much to do..

**yawns
I now long for the coming holidays or weekends..

Am I?

Am I here?
Do you know?
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Of course I am.. In front of the computer browsing facebook again...
so unmotivated..

Wandering..

I'm just being kinda bored these days..
Browsing through the net everyday, going to the usual websites..
It seems that I am hardly motivated these days, I guess it's the laziness syndrome again..
Gosh.. I just want to get rid of it..

Wandering about, wondering..

wakaka.. stupid title eh?
wandering, wondering?
The long silence of my blog..
The reason?!
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I wanna let everyone to know about my convocation..
hoho.. I'm just looking forward to it very much..

My next wonder in the list:
CPT novel..
Pride & Prejutice..

Mirror..

Sometimes I wonder..
Is blue really"blue"?
Is pink really "pink"?
Mirror indeed shows our reflections,
yet will it show us the truth?
I wonder...

Piano Diploma convocation

Finally!!!
I'm hearing news from Miss Lee!! Yeah, I'm graduating as in the school of music!!!
I was so excited when I heard about it..
Duh!! No doubt about it..
It's just natural for people to be over excited at times!!!
Plus it's such a rare opportunity, I must not miss it.. OR should I say, I will not ever trying to miss it..
It's been years since I pass Grade 8..
It's too bad I don't have the time to learn violin or guitar or whatever instruments.. :(

Music..
something I enjoy a lot..
something I had once cried over..

Music..
something that is very meaningful..
something that brings the best out of one's life..

wakaka..
Even though I don't think someone would read my blog, I'll still going to post this..
I'm really excited over this issue, and I can't wait for April to come..
RM300++ for the robes?? Whatever.. I'll pay the price so that I can enjoy that proudest moment of my life..
It's my greatest personal achievement till now...

Next stop I guess, it'll be performing life on stage!!
Gosh.. I miss that kind of nervous feelings and satisfaction when it's the first time performing..
People are admiring your playing, acknowledging your status in the musical performance..
OWH!! I miss that moment..
haha.. Anyone needs any companion in performing, I'll help you with the piano, though I'm still not that good..
Never mind that..
I just want to perform in front of people and enjoy myself, instead of saying that "Yeah, I could play the piano too.."
"Owh, I wished that I could play so freely like her.."

However, I'm not that interested in composing songs.. Composing needs lots of techniques, and I don't know what to write about.. Perhaps I should try to compose my own song..
& don't ask me about any famous pianist.. I like to play piano, and I like to perform..
But it doesn't mean that I know everything about music..
I just enjoy it in my own way, in my own little world.. I don't really care how people perform, or how good they are, even though they're really good in reality..
Being ignorant about music?? Or not enough passion in music?? I don't care about it..
I just love performing..
Hmm.. Maybe I should go for the other higher level of diploma, then I'll run to England?? haha..
A wild fantasy, which only exists in my dreams..

Come to think of it.. I'm writing as if I'm really fond of music..
Missing the performing chance?? Maybe.. erm.. YEAH!!!
But I'm sure not a pro on piano knowledge.. Mind that in your mind..

The end??

ARGH!!! My physic..
SUCKS!!!!
Even for some simple conceptual questions, I can't answer..
Yet, when people say," Yeah.. There's next time...Then just do better"
Yeah.. It's true for some cases..
BUT,
....
......
It's not true for me!!!
First test, and I'm feeling that I'm so weak in that..
Gosh.. I'm off to a rocky and very bad start.. How would I cope with the increasing difficulty of questions later on??

"Look the good side of life"
It's not always true...
**being down now..

again?!

gosh, why do I end up in here again.. it's just my daily routine i guess.. haha..
My mind is so blank now, I just don't know how to do..
that helpless feeling again..
hmm.. I've been noticing, the songs in my cellphone seem to be emo.. perhaps I should listen to some joyful songs.. **just another crap.. haha..

**back to work now..

snap out of it!!

argh!!!
gotta come back!!!
no more slacking!!!

Cherish

Cherish...
Cherish your life, your family, your friends..
Cherish your stuffs, for it means a lot to some other people that you may not know..
Cherish your day, for we are very blessed for the life we are leading now..
Cherish everything in your life, for everything has its own significance..
Believe in God, as He knows it all..

Fun?!

CNY..
It should be a merry occasion..
Yet now, I'm sitting in front of the computer, browsing the Internet..
Thanks to the enormous workload during the holidays, with the physic test coming up right after the CNY, I'm racking my brains over the criticism essay..
Gosh.. I guess actions HAVE to speak louder than words..
I'll still enjoy this festive season, before I start thinking of the essays and tests..
Hehe.. ANGPAU!!!

CNY!!!

Yeah!!!
angpau!!!
home!!!
12-hour sleep!!!
lol

Will I Ever Be??

Will I be more dominant in voicing out opinions?
Will I be more bold in decision making?
Will I be bettter in social networking?
Will I be a better personality easily accepted by people?
Will I be???
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When will it be???
Frankly, I don't know..

**posted by some emo teenager who is whining over her life without taking any actions, being pessimistic almost all the time..
** random post

Choices

Choices..
Decision..
Outcome..
Goals..
Success..

**still being indecisive.. gosh..

What to choose?? Is it the right choice?

Comfirmation..
Identity..
Acceptance..

**gotta have my own stand on issues now..

Seen & Heard

Am I? NOT really..
Will I? I guess so..
How? I'm not sure..
When? The day will come..

** indecisive me..

Chinese New Year

YEAH!!
New year, new celebration, new resolution..
Yet, I'm still infected with the flu virus, causing me to coughing every few minutes..
It's so torturing, plus the astonished looks on other people's faces looking for the cough source..

A joke on coughing..
Excuse me.. ***coughing in a very weird way
**Burst out laughing
Exucse what? Haha.. Or should you repeat what you do just now?
***coughing in a similar way, but slightly softer..
Yea.. Thanks for your cough anyway..
**still laughing on the coughing sound
wakakaka!!!

Stereotype..

A new concept of theory..
Flying symbolozes freedom..
River symbolizes continuity & purity..
BMW symbolizes money..
Night time symbolizes sleep & calmness..
Angel symbolizes hope & wishes..
Hell symbolizes sufferings & hardships..
But what about planes?
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They represents comfort, not luxury..
Most people can afford to pay for plane tickets, plus there's time-to-time offers..
Comfort is indeed the ultimate objective in life..
=P
Another random and boring post..

Sushi King

Owh.. It's been ages since I ate salmon..

My mouth was salivating and my stomach rumble when I saw the menu..

Yea.. I've gotta eat that, because mum's coming and I get to eat without feeling any remorse.. Hoho.. Evil me, anyway just enjoy life while we can.. =P

Everything Speaks

This is the new theme for the ENG 4U..
Yeah.. Everything do speaks.. but will it be heard or hidden in one's heart?
That's the main problem with the sutdents these days, including ME!!!
Gosh.. I think I'm even more quiet compared to last semester, perhaps not much change..
Now I realised my oral SUCKS!!
Gosh.. I even have to think for a moment to arrange my words.. HOw would I be prepared for the IELTS test in February??
ARGH.. I gotta start using English these days.. Plus my interpretation is damn basic..
Gosh.. I guess I'm gonna have a hard time in English.. I have not see any improvement in my English since last year.. I'm still at the same level as when I just got here, 6 months ago..

Anyway, stop all these crapping and (**argh, what's the word again) whining..
show full support to ENG!!

gosh.. I'm just crapping these days..
back to my novel.. lol.. I just read 8 pages, since 2 weeks had passed..

Life begins now..

I'm kinda lazy now, yet there's physic homework due on friday.. gosh.. Why is the homework due so quickly?
Holiday was kinda ok, yet I still miss TAIWAN!!!
yeah, TAIWAN!!!
It was so fun, plus the amazing weather, not to mention the terrible air.. lol..
I would never ever won't go to TAIWAN whenever I got the chance to do it..
Damn.. Crap again..
Anyway, back to reality..
TT.. My nose is ruined..
Crap again..
[enter] log off...

MIssing the Holidays?!

Not sure though..
Beginning of holidays:
omg.. it's so boring.. I'm living a pig life..
Midst:
Time's still ticking.. Better still, I got manga, MTV, Channel V & AXN =P
That's should while away my free time.. Plus 10 hours of sleep..
End:
WTH?!! So fast?!!
NOOOO!!!! I dun want to!!
back in Subang:
Yeah!! Let's go shopping!! Have fun while we can..
Sunway, 1U, Times Square..
**sobsob..
Time is so limited..

2nd sem

yea.. Time does flies.. Then again, the busy schedule of lacking sleep.. haha.. I will definitely look very alike to panda at the end of the semester...
Regarding the lecturers, no complaints for now, since it's still the beginning of everything, for now.. What I can say is, I'll have to expand my network.. My network is damn limited, seriously..
Man can't stay in their safe zone forever.. I've got to climb out of the turtle shell, beyond the glorious five group... (which I'm not sure will I achieve my new year resolution)

Wait.. That's out of topic.. Anyway, I was hoping to get a different teacher for english.. *new experience.. Anyway. I don't mind it much.. The calculus lecturer is quite good, ignoring the fact that her jokes are sometimes lame or funny..
*** swt, swt, freezing, mouth open, staring eyes, utter silence, sudden laughter..
That's the scenario whenever she jokes..
More observation later... Snoozing off for having long & boring breaks..

2009!!

New year!!
new wishes,
new hopes,
new aspirations...